Big Cass was released from WWE and not a lot of fans saw it coming. He was just coming off of an injury and had a program with Daniel Bryan. However, he wasn’t doing all that well on a personal level.
Caz XL recently cut a promo where he admitted to being an alcoholic and out of shape. Now he is in great shape and ready to take the pro wrestling world by storm once again.
While speaking to DDP Yoga’s YouTube channel, Caz XL opened up about that tragic part of his life. This included speaking about his depression and a seizure that he suffered at a House Of Hardcore show that he says was a huge turning point for him.
“Being depressed is one thing. Having depression on a daily basis is another thing… It’s hard to tell people about it because who knows what they’re going to say, ‘You’re looking for attention. You have everything you ever wanted…’, so you just keep it to yourself. You just hide it deep down which is the worst thing you can do.”
“[I] didn’t seek help for years. Self medicated with alcohol. Went to the bars trying to drink beers and couldn’t really fall asleep. When I woke up I was like, ‘I wish that God would have just taken me in my sleep.’ Why am I thinking this? ‘I wish that I wouldn’t be alive today’.”
“I went to do the House of Hardcore show in Philadelphia. Going into the show, I hadn’t slept in two days. Don’t remember walking out through the curtain, don’t remember going to the autograph table, came to in the ambulance. And they told me I had a seizure. I took that as a sign from God. God spoke to me that day and he was saying, ‘If you want to live this life, you’re going to end up dead because this is where your life is heading.’ I could have died the night. That’s what I was told in the ER.”
“This guy walks up to me while I’m signing autographs and says, ‘You’re deeply depressed. You’re down, and I’m going to help you out.’ After the seizure I immediately went to live with him in Delaware. Sober living, clean living, healthy positive attitude and he turned my life around.”
“I am sitting here right now telling you that I should be dead with the amount I drank and the seizure I had. I shouldn’t be here. If anybody out there suffers with depression, anxiety, and you’re hiding it because there’s a stigma that you’re weak, you’re not weak. Whatever it is, you need to seek help. Whether it’s medication or talk therapy, or whatever it is that you need, you need to get it because hiding it deep down, it’s not going to work and that’s what I did for a long time and eventually… pop, it’s just an explosion. Whatever you need to do to fix it, make sure you do it. Keeping that sh*t bottled deep down, it aint worth it. Trust me from somebody who lived it. Seek help.”
Thankfully, Caz XL seems to be doing much better now. He had a very close call and claims that he shouldn’t be alive right now. The fact that he was able to pull through and is looking this good should be a testament to his hard work and determination to improve and make his name as big as it can be in the pro wrestling business.
Wrestling aside, it’s just great to see Big Cass doing so well and hopefully, he will be a much happier man now that he is sober and has some clarity.