Steve Carrier on July 5, 2025
Deonna Purrazzo isn’t holding back about the moment that completely changed her outlook on marijuana—and it all started with what she thought would be a harmless edible.
During a conversation on the Digital Social Hour podcast, the AEW star opened up about the traumatic experience that sent her spiraling into dark, intrusive thoughts and led her to swear off weed entirely.
Deonna explained that the experience happened nearly three years ago, and what started as a relaxing night quickly turned into a mental nightmare.
“So, I don’t smoke weed. I don’t do edibles anymore because about two and a half, maybe almost three years ago, I took 10 milligrams of an edible and I was laying on the couch and all of a sudden like I got head to toe like tingly, almost like, ‘Oh my God, I’m paralyzed’ feeling. And my husband’s best friend was sitting on our couch with us and I was like, ‘I don’t feel good… did I crack my neck? Am I paralyzed? Like, what’s happening?’”
Her husband tried to calm her down, but things escalated fast.
“And my husband came in — he’s just sitting off camera, so I’m looking at him right now — and he was like, ‘Babe, you’re just too high.’ And I was like, ‘Something is wrong.’”
She even tried to make herself throw up to feel better, but nothing worked.
“And I was like, ‘You know what? Let me try to throw up, that’ll help me feel better.’ And he’s like, ‘Babe, it doesn’t work like that, like, this is weird.’ And so the rest of the night, I was like, ‘I’m dead.’”
Things took a terrifying turn as her mind spiraled into dark territory.
“And also, like, you know, my husband’s prior military, we are proud gun owners, we were like… I literally thought like, ‘Well, if I died, how did I die? I must have committed suicide.’ And I was like, ‘I went in our safe and I took the gun and I committed suicide.’”
The thoughts were so extreme that they shook her entire sense of self.
“And then it spiraled me out of control of like, ‘Well, I’ve never felt that way before and I’ve never had these thoughts before and like, am I capable of that?’ It was this really dramatic, traumatizing thing for me. And I put myself in like crazy intensive therapy afterwards because I was so like, ‘I’ve never had those thoughts before… I’ve always been such a self-confident, like I believe in myself, I believe in like my humanity and I’m here for a purpose and God put me here for a purpose… but like, am I capable of doing that to myself?’”
The experience was enough for her to quit weed altogether, admitting the fear of what her mind was capable of left a lasting impact.
“And I just didn’t know how to handle that. That was the last time I ever did an edible. It’s the last time I ever smoked weed because I was so like, ‘Holy crap, what is my mind capable of?’ And maybe I’ve always been a little anxious and a little paranoid and dealt with mental health issues, but it’s never been to that extreme.”
Deonna’s story is a powerful reminder that mental health can take unexpected turns—and how quickly something meant to relax you can become overwhelming.
What’s your take—should more wrestlers be open about mental health and experiences like this? Hit the comments and let us know.
July 5, 2025 3:39 pm
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