AKIRA Claims He Tried to End His Life During Turbulent Relationship with Masha Slamovich

Pro wrestler AKIRA accused his ex-partner Masha Slamovich of domestic violence, among other things. It turns out there was more to this than initially thought, as AKIRA tried to end his life numerous times because of Masha.

AKIRA took to Twitter and broke his silence on the matter. AKIRA said he felt sick to his stomach and like he was disappearing. He said a friend stayed quiet for months because he asked them to, and he still didn’t want to speak publicly.

AKIRA admitted he’d been angry, suicidal, and depressed since the end of January, and that he wouldn’t be alive now without the daily calls from that friend, the silly videos from his roommate Wraith, and support from Dale Patrick and Simon Gotch.

“I woke up to this and people asking me if I was okay. Kinda wanna throw up, kinda want to go away forever. My friend held back for months because I asked her to, and I would have never said anything. I still really don’t want to. I didn’t want to lash out in anger, because I was angry, suicidal, and depressive since the end of January. I’m not alive though if she didn’t take my calls everyday while caring for her sick grandfather, I’m not alive if my roommate Wraith didn’t laugh with me at stupid videos daily. I’m not alive if Dale Patrick’s and Simon Gotch weren’t there for me.”

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AKIRA said he gave a lot and got little back in his relationship with Masha Slamovich. Even as he tried to grow and improve, Masha told him he never did enough and mocked the things he liked.

When he shared confusion about his gender, that was turned against him. He says he was lied to about money and spent more than he should because he thought they were struggling together.

AKIRA says the life he tried to build with someone fell apart, and he attempted suicide three times as a result. Every time he ended up in the hospital, the person he admired was gone, and he felt he didn’t matter. He only spoke about past sexual abuse because he was spiraling alone in Japan.

“I gave a lot with little in return. I had a lot of growing up to do and despite my progression I was always told I was never doing enough, the things I liked and did were stupid and wastes of time. Things I told about my thoughts on my gender and the confusion I was feeling was turned on me. I was lied to about finances and spent more than I should have because I thought we were struggling together.

I almost killed myself three times as the life I tried to build with someone was torn apart and I became nothing to that person. It was like a withdrawal, every time I went to the hospital that person I put on a pedestal was gone. I didn’t matter. would have never said anything. I only came out with my prior experiences of sexual abuse because I was spiraling alone in Japan.”

AKIRA stated that he tried his best, but his best was never enough. His achievements and money felt like tools used by someone else. Things said to him in confidence were later used against him. He cannot get back the time, the money, or the last four years of his life. He had been trying to rebuild his life with family, friends, his dog, and his wrestling career. Right now, he worries those dreams might not happen.

AKIRA said he’s no longer angry or sad; now he feels apathetic. He has moved on but still carries bitterness he does not let control him. He believes he has grown mentally, physically, and spiritually as a person and as a wrestler, but he has nothing more to say to that person.

AKIRA said he still adores them and feels phantom pains when he sees their photo. They are part of his life and history, and he says those hard experiences and the isolation in a foreign country helped shape who he is.

“I tried my best but my best was never good enough and all my accomplishments and money were nothing but tools for someone else.

Many things said in confidence turned and used against me.

I can’t get that time back. I can’t get the money back. I can’t get the last four years of my life back. I was just trying my best to come back and be with my family and friends and dog, and try to get signed. I dreamed of doing things.

Maybe it won’t happen now.

I’m not angry. I’m not sad. Not anymore. I’m apathetic. I’ve moved on and there’s still bitterness in my stomach I don’t let it guide me.

I’ve grown up as a person and a wrestler. I’ve grown up mentally, physically, and spiritually. I’m still figuring things out and have nothing to say to that person. I adored them. I still feel phantom pains in my heart every time I see a photo.

They’re a part of my life and history. I don’t get to where I am now ; a mature and thoughtful person with a healthy dose of CTE without the experiences I went through and the isolation I experienced in a foreign country.

But

It is what it is. Whatever happens, happens.”

This comes after leaked texts revealed that Masha Slamovich blamed AKIRA for the domestic violence following their breakup. At the end of the day, the relationship fell apart slowly and painfully and AKIRA is still living with the pain and we hope he can eventually move on from this whole ordeal and heal properly.

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